It's the process, I'm told, you have to find joy in the process rather than the result. Here I am, looking at the process. There will be little or no result from this. And that's fine! Right? This is the way to go - forward without a word - where was I, what was I doing? Nevermind that, I'm here. It's the process, the performance, you practice a role and supposedly you can learn how to do it all the time, I haven't learned any of them yet but, I'm told, that's how it works. A while back I emptied out my brain on purpose - just fucking turned it over and shook all of the rattling parts out - because I was convinced that was the way to happiness and strength. To get as close to not living as possible, to lower yourself to the floor on all fours and see eye to eye with the animals. Well if you aren't a pet or zoo animal life isn't great for animals, and on second thought they have their own problems too. So which way? What's important isn't the way, it's the process, I'm told. I'm back!